I hate losing

I hate losing myself in thought it just starts with a small stream and opens up into many other rivers, eventually making me almost lose where i started. I cant seem to focus as much as I used too. If i'm deep in thought I cant be talking, if i am talking I cant be in a deep thought. Last night at dinner I could not stop talking, it was references to this and to that. A little deduction here and there nothing to fancy. Just gaga that would come out if I was not thinking, and then this afternoon I sat down at the table and one thing was muttered to me. As soon as one topic came out that I have not been properly educated on. Or at least to my acknowledgments I have not. So that bit of abstract thinking opened up the wormhole. I started on one subject, interconnected that subject to a more meaningful subject then connection after connections. I was on a more meaningful thought process but it was now all of my interest. Losing focus.